I did this sketch about a week ago. After finishing it and kinda staring at it, the following words came into my mind “I’m at peace with who I am becoming!
Those words definitely resonated with me since I’ve been on a personal emotional healing journey where I’m finally learning how to LOVE and ACCEPT my SELF, along with the good, bad, and the ugly sides of me.
I learning how to become more aware of the stories (lies) that I’ve been telling myself and still tell myself and changing and interrupting those thoughts with words of truth.
God is helping me to heal and get out of my own way! I’m truly enjoying the FREEDOM of just enjoying who I really am and who I am becoming.
I was going through some of my earlier drawings and found this beauty I had drawn in 2017. At that time, I had no idea you could color portraits using colored pencils and I’d never heard about Prismacolor Color Pencils before either.
I’ve learn so, so much since 2017 and have grown by leaps and bounds! I decided to try my knowledge gained so far and color her with color pencil. I still have a long ways to go and still get confused on the whole layering thing.
I honestly just intuitively pick out colors and blend them. I started coloring yesterday and kinda gave up because it was looking really hopeless (the ugly stage as Karen calls it). I kinda through aside and told myself maybe I revisit it today.
This morning I kept working at it and for me it was WOW! Perfect? Nope! Am I happy with her? Oh, yeah, Baby!!! ?
I took a few process photos when I remembered to.
I decided to draw a color pencil portrait using Prismacolor Color Pencils and watercolor. Unfortunately, I used a cheap so-called sketchbook I bought from Walgreens. Although the cover stated it’s a sketchbook, it really is nothing more than copy paper bound with coil!
It did not do well, of course, with watercolor and the paper started to wrinkle and I totally disliked the way the color pencil lay on the paper and the blending was not that great either. However, I still like the way she came out and it was good practice anyway! Lol
Although I LOVE drawing whimsical faces/art, I work at purposely stretching myself to attempt drawing ‘realistic’ faces. They are not easy at all; sometimes it’s fun to me and other times it’s the most frustrating experience!
The photo below is a photo of myself a few years ago which is my reference for the above. Clearly, I missed the mark for drawing exactly what I was seeing! LOL
Something happens, almost 100% of the time, when I’m trying to work from a ‘realistic’ photo. I seem to slip off into a flow that I forget about the photo reference and I start doing whatever is flowing through my mind. My drawing comes out totally different from what I started off with and almost always I LOVE the outcome!
I used to get really angry when this happened; however, I realize this is how I flow naturally during my creative process. I find I do so much better when I intuitively create art. I’ve learn to accept this and really enjoy and be thankful for it. It’s uniquely who I am as an emerging artist.
So, even though my self-portrait practice attempt doesn’t look like me, I am pleased with the beauty who wanted to be born and her beautiful smile!
As I go through my journey to healing and self-discovery, I’m at peace with who I am BECOMING!
I dedicate to every woman young or old who are actively working on themselves to heal inner wounds/hurts and learning to get to know themselves probably for the first time in their lives. We, as women, often take care of the other people in our lives and often forget that we need to make ourselves a priority too! Self-care is extremely important along with mental health as well.
I encourage my sister friends to get to the place where you too can say, “I’m at peace with who I am BECOMING! LOVE yourself right where you are; don’t wait until…whatever you’re telling yourself before you love YOU! NOW is the time…day-by-day, one step at a time! You are worthy and valuable not matter what challenges you have going on!
I’m cheering you on!
Right after I completed first coloring page “Whimsical Afro Girl,” I created this one. I sketched this yesterday and she had an afro but I kept seeing her with a turban on instead. I then decided to add random lines for designs on her turban and was pleased with the outcome. So, I decided to turn this into another coloring page, which I titled Whimsical African Queen Coloring Page. I excited about coloring her too! Lol
My girl’s hairstyle was inspired by this prompt. I didn’t use anything else as part of creating my drawing. Below is the reference photo from Jenny Manno is the artist of this piece and the group facilitator of Next JENeration Art, a Facebook art group.