I will have to do more work on this painting. I honestly don’t like the way she came out. I’m still waiting to see what needs to be changed about her. Lol
I just wanted to share something very personal here. My journey toward self-love and self-acceptance has been a LONG journey recovering from childhood abuse of every kind.
I’m finally learning to really LOVE myself flaws and all! There are good days and not so good days; however, my better days outweigh the not so good ones.
I turned 62 on May 18th and 5 days later I decided I NEEDed change with my hair! I was tired of the braids, and so in a spontaneous moment, I decided to cut it all off!
I became the canvas and the ARTwork was/is ME! and I held the paint brush (scissors) and I could do whatever I chose to do with it and I did.
You guys I cannot tell you how AMAZING I felt when I made that first cut on my hair. Surprisingly, I felt as if a tone of weight was lifted off my entire body; this is the only way I can explain it.
I had drawn a girl’s face with short hair a couple days BEFORE I cut my hair. I had just put into a book and it fell out last night.
As I looked at it, I decided to use an ink pen over the pencil and decided to use ink for her hair! Isn’t that wild? I NEVER use ink pen for any of my girls…EVER because you can’t erase the mistakes!
Then I wrote a few words around her; I realized she represented me when I realized I drew her with very short hair. My identity is so much more than my hair or body for that matter! Lol
My LIFE is my canvas and I can choose to paint whatever I want that brings me joy, purpose, happiness, fulfillment, adventure, and fun, and meaningful relationships!
I share this in the hopes that it will encourage someone else who may have the same struggles. Thanks for reading.
I did this sketch about a week ago. After finishing it and kinda staring at it, the following words came into my mind “I’m at peace with who I am becoming!
Those words definitely resonated with me since I’ve been on a personal emotional healing journey where I’m finally learning how to LOVE and ACCEPT my SELF, along with the good, bad, and the ugly sides of me.
I learning how to become more aware of the stories (lies) that I’ve been telling myself and still tell myself and changing and interrupting those thoughts with words of truth.
God is helping me to heal and get out of my own way! I’m truly enjoying the FREEDOM of just enjoying who I really am and who I am becoming.
I was going through some of my earlier drawings and found this beauty I had drawn in 2017. At that time, I had no idea you could color portraits using colored pencils and I’d never heard about Prismacolor Color Pencils before either.
I’ve learn so, so much since 2017 and have grown by leaps and bounds! I decided to try my knowledge gained so far and color her with color pencil. I still have a long ways to go and still get confused on the whole layering thing.
I honestly just intuitively pick out colors and blend them. I started coloring yesterday and kinda gave up because it was looking really hopeless (the ugly stage as Karen calls it). I kinda through aside and told myself maybe I revisit it today.
This morning I kept working at it and for me it was WOW! Perfect? Nope! Am I happy with her? Oh, yeah, Baby!!! ?
I took a few process photos when I remembered to.